Spring break blabber

I can do better in school. But the good news I achieved my goals this quarter for grades. Barely. But I did. So I am proud of myself.

Winter quarter is behind me. Spring quarter is right around the corner. And I have 8 billion things to deal with. On Sunday. But today. I can fuck around on my new computer. I have no responsibilities right now. This won't last long. I'm sure. But nevertheless. Here I have. Nothing.

Tiago Bettencourt and John Farnham (oddly enough) are getting the most airplay this week. As is Rihanna and the cast of High School Musical 2. It's an odd life. I admit. But it gets me through.

Today I played Super Mario Galexy or something. Beautiful Game. Mom is home.

Thai food? Neoprene? Yes. Yes.

:)

A couple of things I'd like to address

My life is day to day, I realize that. I, like everyone else, lives for the day when a balance exists. No matter the situation, no matter the person, history, financial status, race, gender - I believe everyone strives for balance. This has been a reoccuring theme in my life since high school.

My future is undetermined. And will continue to be until it is the past - and my present will have to deal with whatever that may be.

My past is unresolved. I don't believe a resolution can occur - not until all life - all life of judgment - has disappeared.

I move forward with my education. Because without it - I would be so unsecured - I wouldn't know where to go.

I can't seem to stop watching youtube videos of ann coulter. I really need to stop. you know. she's completely worthless. I don't really care about her well being at all. while she's making millions and millions of dollars, i am unemployed. at what point do i start freaking out about it? i managed to purchase 3 thomas harris books today. I still need to finish red dragon. hopefully i can stay up a little more tonight to do so. it totally takes me away doesnt it? I think we all deserve the right to thinking about psychopaths. we're all psychopaths in our own way arnt we? we've all had crazy thoughts. we just dont all act them out. ann coulter does though. man. she's a bitch.


anyway. classes start on monday. i still havn't gotten into the 1130 secton for physics. *please please please open up*. maybe it's better I dont have a job. oh! i need to go to target tomorrow and buy some cheap sweaty pants.

okay, so with the start of school coming; this fact can't go unnoticed: I'm taking 5 classes. and yes, I'll admit. it's a little masochistic. but, as I was saying, if we're not allowed to act out our psychopathic tendencies (or in this case, achedemic psychosis), one surely cannot achieve happiness. ....... or I might fail. either way it's going to be EXPLOSIVE

w00t!

going to read red dragon. and going to shut my door.

YES

And Milo, full of thoughts and questions, curled up on the pages of tomorrow's music and eagerly awaited the dawn.

.::.The Phantom Tollbooth.::.



As I write, remembering what I saw this morning, it transiently seems to me that my writing about photosynthesis, pencil scratching across the pages of my notebook in the fading evening light, is photosynthesis writing about itself.

.::.Nicholas Harberd.::.



These bitches spend the night eating ass and sucking dick and then call themselves vegan.

.::. Shortbus .::.

favorite words

My favorite words are: Communicative, Coquettish, Algebraic, Amicable, Photosynthetic, Noodle, Entropic, Whore, Neutrality, Particulate, Defenestration, Vapid, Autumnal, Festering, Swagger, Stimuli, Nautical, Environs, Tertiary, Aliphatic, Aquaculture, Processes, Lest, Electrophillic, Pedagogy, Pedagogic, Magnificat, Fiasco, Vile, Soporific, Hart, Primality, Sesquipedalianism, Entomophily, Operatically, and Fungivory.

something just broke

all this will pass.
I will not be able to reclaim my dignity though.
and it is very cold outside.
I'm losing energy to do this.
I am only 2 days away from everything.

I kept thinking
something just woke
something just spoke
something I wish I hadn’t heard
something bewildering occurred
fix it up fast, please
till its just smoke
till its only something just passed
nothing that will last
where I was what I was doing
nothing but the moment
just an awful moment
but something just (broke)

something just broke

when will things work out?

we keep falling in love. do the strifes outweigh the fantasy.
I don't want to be the one who acts in desperation
I just want to have touch
tactile. malleable. significant. dig my face into your stomach. contact.

I don't know
physics 115: electromagnetism & heat
spanish 302: grammer & lexicon
biology 425: adv plant phys
environmental science 4??: plant ecophys
microm 435: microbial ecology

we'll see